Haven't had a B...

...in over 15 years. And really that's nothing to brag about. It's more pathetic that I don't attempt anything that I can't be good it.

But yesterday I did.

I faced the fear and signed up for the Math Content Knowledge Test in March. I actually didn't want to tell anybody because then I would have to tell them if I passed or not. But good ole Donald Miller inspired me once again to have what he would call "an inciting incident." Like when he texted all his friends telling them he was going to meet his father so he couldn't bail on it.

And so I've been taking these math classes this summer and this fall. And I'm trying to live what I teach. That Bs are ok. Even though I got an A this summer and probably will this fall. I need to learn how to learn...not just get the grade. I'm stinking good at getting the As. But that's not what it is about anymore.

It is about doing something that I don't know how I will do. And although that is what I desire it is so much harder to live it. I can talk the big talk about taking risks and how to live on the edge. But really I suck at putting myself in a position that is risky. The last time I didn't get something I tried for was when I interviewed at Carmody. But it helped me get the job at Ranchview so I was able to use it as a stepping stone.

I need more stepping stones in life. And I guess that means I need to put myself out there more.

And someday I might even get a C...