So I haven't blogged since May 5th and not sure what struck a chord with me to blog tonight. Maybe it is that you get blindsided in life sometimes and you need a way to process it. Maybe it is that you need to choose what to dwell on and this is how you do it. Whatever it is...here it goes.
So right now I really want to tell my kids how much I sacrifice for them and how great they have it. Or how hard it is to keep your cool when they knock over the shopping cart, or sass off, or continually screw around in the car.
But I'm taking my word and applying it when it is hardest.
Choose.
I choose to dwell on the true, pure, the lovely, the right, the noble, and trustworthy. Not because all the junk isn't there or to be in denial but rather to be in choice...I think it's different. And so I will dwell (key word I think) on that which is praiseworthy.
In Micah:
1. Your questions about God and Jesus and how they all work together. Something big is going on in that little mind of yours. And it is sinking into your heart.
2. Your sweetness with Tucker's baby brother.
3. How hard you work at easy talk with Aidan.
4. Your imagination with the Little People tonight.
5. Being ok with getting water when you asked for a shake. Didn't even ask again. Truly grateful.
In Aidan:
1. Your honesty about what happens at school, even when it's not always good.
2. Your imagination to create. You dream so super big that I don't even know what to do with it.
3. Your sharing of the grapes with Micah because you wanted to be good...and that was how you knew to do it with what you had.
4. Your huge hug when I picked you up from school. You give me one everyday and I don't take it for granted.
5. Your thankfulness for water and a cheeseburger. When I said you could get milk at home you rolled with it instantly.
Choosing...It always puts me in the right place. That's why I process this. It's too important to forget.
