So my spewing goes like this...
Doors shutting all around on what makes sense to me as best for the boy's for school. Spilled on the new couch. Head is pounding. Jeremy's patio lines are off. Bedtime routine has become miserable. And I'm locked out of the blasting e-benefits and need to register by tomorrow. I don't know what to do with myself right now. I hate that when you can't even figure out if you should go to sleep, finish up stuff that is weighing on you, or just cry it out. So I am choosing to process...
I want to take my own advice right now (ummm actually Paul's) To look to that which is noble, true, excellent, praiseworthy but what if you are just more in a David duke it out lamenting Psalm place?
This was supposed to be best. This was supposed to be a week of a not just saying "That was a God thing" but saying "That was a God explosion". I really was expectant for great things. Is my view clouded? Are there great things that I am either missing out on by looking down instead of up or does my view of great need to change? If God is doing great things because His character never changes then is my idea of great too humanly driven and not eternity driven?
Too deep for even my own processing right now. I think I just need to look back to be reminded of God's faithfulness. Good ole' Isrealities were good for some lessons.
